7/19/2010 III

Free write home:

I can admit to myself (finally) that these times they are a-changin'. I've never done anything for myself that I didn't want to do. The frustration, the pain, all worth it. I'm dreaming again, I'm seeing myself in a new light. I'm hoping again, not waiting any more, though I won't deny I'm wanting. These lies I've told myself are sloughing away. Like so much dead skin. I'm shedding previous concepts, realities. I think I'm finally growing up.

7/19/2010 - What's left

I don't have a whole lot to give,
Most of what I had was taken,
I've broken part, what's left of my heart.
Just leave me this piece,
This place to breathe.
I've take it to heart,
I'm alone now.
I'm too far gone down the road,
No wait...
That's your cue to take the pieces and run.
I'm left with this shell of my self.
Creaking hinges on a dusty shelf.
The parts I've given away,
Are the sum of my failure,
The biggest mistakes,
So take these pieces left of me and run away.

7/19/2010 II

It's been eight years since I've seen the stars,
show me the sky and my wish is granted.
I could hold this world in the palm of my hand,
pursue the hand held sun.
My misfortune to remember the firmament,
while she slowly drips from my memory.
I want just one view of the night sky.
Open wide, and I'll see the soul of the universe.
She holds me dear, I'll let go the fear,
that I'll forget the face of the wilderness.
I'll keep pushing, keep looking,
keep turning over stones unturned.
I'll keep waiting, hands held in darkness.
While the vastness, she unfolds before me.

7/19/2010

I've drained the cistern,
now I wait for time,
to turn around again.
I've held onto this moment,
this very moment,
when the world fell apart.
You haven't told me all your secrets yet,
I'm the finder, I've no doubt I'll get it right.
You haven't revealed the purpose,
I know I'm the first,
to dive into the maelstrom.

7/16/2010 - The Long Way

7/16/2010 - The Long Way

As our heartbeat slows my attention goes,
To the feel of your hips against mine,
It's a fast tight curve, the wrong word,
Could shoot us off into the night.
I've a long way to go to hit bottom
Hold on tight if you've got 'em
It's a wild ride through the night sky
Something's missing,
I can't tell if you're here or far
You've got the right way,
I'll take the long way
Looking up at you from the hole in my heart
I'll be looking for you in the middle
I've a long way to go

Don't Talk 7/7/2010

We're standing here, smoking our cigars,
The tugs pulling barges out to sea,
You draw a breath to speak.

Shh don't talk, you'll cock it up
I'm letting the tide break over me
Shh just wait, write it down
It'll come back to you I promise

Just stand right here,
give me a moment of silence
I'm letting the world breath around me
I don't mean to cut you off, just don't talk.